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02 March 2008 @ 06:17 pm
"I'm looking forward to it!"  
Do you ever just need to talk? Not just talk, but talk talk talk. Fill the silence. Fill that void talking. But you have to have someone to talk -to-. You always need that girlfriend's ear you can blab off about nothing and everything! Well, now I have to wait until the fireside is over so I can finish talking to my cousin, and Trisha had to cut me off because she got to her grandma's. And now I'm stuck with unfinished words. Sure, I've told the story, but I need to go beyond that. Words can't express how I feel sometimes, but I still have to talk about it.

Well, my hair is short. And cute, I must say. Why did I ever grow my hair out? To donate a foot of it, I guess, and then lose four inches more in the styling process. It was definitely a good move, though. I haven't missed my hair since.

And boys. Boys boys boys boys. One boy in particular. I'm in love with a snowman. Sideburns and clear blue eyes and the most sincere of smiles. He is Mr. President. He is number ten of eleven kids. He is going to get me fired one of these Thursdays, 'cause I spend all my time back in Frozen talking to him. Talking about absolutely nothing. I love it. I love talking about plums and peanut butter and Screwtape Letters and nothing and everything, but at other times it drives me nuts! Because I want to know things about him. I want to tell him serious things. But not really. And then when we talk, the conversation goes wherever the wind blows... Which made asking him to hang out really difficult. Had to do it twice because we got off-subject the first time.

But he's gorgeous. And Stettsen is my man who'll do anything to help me with this. He found out for me that, yes, Tyson likes me, and I was on Cloud Nine for a week. A boy! A boy likes me! A boy I crushed on first likes -me-! And he's gorgeous. And he's absolutely smart. And he's spiritual and kind and polite and maybe as inexperienced in this sort of thing as I am. (And there's the problem-- he's also a guy, so he's dumb, so I have to figure out how to make these things happen. I don't think I'll be going to Jordan's Prom unless I get Stett on this.) But I like him. I really do. And last night we established an out-of-work relationship by hanging out. Saw August Rush (beautiful movie). And... That's that. (No boy should ever look that good covered in snow. But he did. And with that beautiful grin he told me: "It's snowing.")


And then there's my sister that I desperately need in my life. I've always told her what's going on... But I haven't seen her in over a month now. And it's killing me. And I need her. She needs to know these things because she's my sister... But by knowing these things, she wouldn't think I was her sister anymore. No one in this house ever wants to hear about Tyson. It's all they ever hear about. But it's all I ever think about! And I know she won't really care about it either, but I still need her to know. I like a boy and he likes me back and now we're stuck talking about plums moving nowhere. And that's it, but she needs to know.

Oh yeah. Don't let me forget to tell Rochelle about Rob in Grocery.

Rob: So, are we gonna hang out before I leave on my mission?

Me: Sure. If you want to.

Rob: Yeah.

Me: When are we gonna hang out?

Rob: When you call me.

Me: I'm, uh... Not gonna call you. I don't call boys.

Rob: How about.... You call Rob?

Me: XD How about you call me?

Rob: 'Cause I don't have your number.

(Like I have -his- number)

Me: I can give it to you.

And then we found the Coconut Milk and I put it back and... the conversation changed. What a funny, curly-headed blond guy. Good ol' Rob. Good ol' Grocery Guys.

Well, thanks for listenin'. I need to talk. And maybe permanent words will help... I just feel words slipping away all the time. I've written so many poems with the word "frozen" in them lately. Maybe I'll end with one of those. One I wrote last night. Oh oh oh. Don't you know how hard we crush? Do you guys feel this way to? Sigh. Thanks again. Sorry I don't update you all enough. Sorry I don't even have an internet life anymore. I love you guys.

I recognized you from the distance,
Walking towards me
(notably graceful)
And blue eyes beaming.
You were outlined in snow,
And I waved you over
(notably clumsy)
Out of the falling snow.
But oh! You wore it so well!
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: that winter's night - sara mclachlan
mishanoke: shameless flirtingmishanoke on March 3rd, 2008 07:11 am (UTC)
I totally get it. Hang onto those feelings--hang onto those words. Pen down as many as you can--you won't believe what you feel after going a couple years and then rereading. You realize just how far you travel, how amazing the world really is.

Love you muches, glad you're smiling. *ruffle* Love the poem, too, such a light note at the end~
neppiechan: snowy streetneppiechan on March 4th, 2008 03:35 pm (UTC)
Thanks, I will. *heart* I've never felt so poetic before... But this frozen boy brings it out in me, I think.

I love you, Mi-Chan!
call_me_chiharucall_me_chiharu on March 3rd, 2008 04:19 pm (UTC)
Nep, that post made me giggle inside and love you to pieces. You can gab to me all you want when you move up here! (I’m gonna redecorate the living room at the end of April all Japanese-esque-ish, too. If you get bored you can drive down here and help me.)

You can also call me if no one wants to hear about Tyson. I’d love to hear about Tyson. XD (And see pictures… does he have facebook?)

Cute poem, btw. :D
call_me_chiharucall_me_chiharu on March 3rd, 2008 04:26 pm (UTC)
and oh my gosh, I LOVE the song you have quoted. (I don't know how to personalize my lj...)

The BEST line is "I love you more than I could ever promise".

That line is what makes that song one of the best love songs of all time.
neppiechan: winter roadneppiechan on March 4th, 2008 03:36 pm (UTC)
Oh, you are going to hear all about boys when I move up there. Boys are great. XD

I love that song, too. Isn't it so simple and beautiful? *twirls*
Kosmos: pokemonkoskosneko on March 3rd, 2008 07:11 pm (UTC)
You make me smile.

I miss you. <3
neppiechan: streetlightsneppiechan on March 4th, 2008 03:36 pm (UTC)
I miss you, too. <3